Jessica checked in on me almost daily, she bugged me, she pushed me, she kept reminding me she was there.
She listened to me. She shared her struggles with me, which meant more to me than anything anyone else could have done or said. I am so thankful and grateful for the timing of it all. Writing this, I remember literally laying on the floor of my room, broken, and hearing that annoying Facebook messenger ding, knowing it was her. If not for her, what was one of the roughest periods of my adult life could have been so much darker...once I did get off the floor I started fighting and even through the hard days I kept pushing play. I kept making the right choices because this amazing coach kept holding me accountable. She did not give up on me and so I didn't give up on me either.
And now, one year after I started this journey of self improvement, food prep and good choices, good choices have become the natural choice. I don't even have to think about it, the healthy choice is the only choice. The thought of greasy, heavy, oh-so-bad for me food triggers an instant thought of tomorrow's stomachache. One meal tonight is not worth a day of ick tomorrow. I still go out with my friends, I still have fun, I still eat delicious food because I love food but I now know healthy does not have to mean boring or bland. And I don't have to suffer to be "healthy." [And] I love that its on my schedule, on my terms, in the privacy of my own home.
I no longer care about what the scale says. I care about how my pants fit, I love watching the number on the measuring tape go down and down and down. The last time I was at this weight I was a size bigger. Now, I am 1.5 inches smaller around my waist and thighs and chest but the scale still says the same thing it did 2 years ago. The scale is just a reflection of your relationship with gravity. Throw it away.
The transformation of my mental and my energy, my spirit and my drive are the greatest takeaways of this last year. Thanks, Jessica.